By Christana Gammell After my husband was sent to the battlefields of war because of his duty as a soldier, our house has never felt lonelier and emptier. Worse, during his first months of leaving also made it much more complicated for me to live and handle all daily responsibilities. Now, I not only have to be a mother, I also have to be a father. Indeed, it was not an easy feat, and it was the reason that I kept asking my husband to leave the army and allow our family to live a normal life. However, some men are just destined to become soldiers, and my husband is one of those few, brave men.
As if it was not difficult enough to deal with the sorrow of seeing my husband leave for his duty, the news of losing him in war was beyond imaginable pain and agony. I already felt alone when he went to fight, imagine the loneliness I felt after hearing the news that he died in his service. Sadness could only overpower you so much. At those moments in my life, I was so scared and petrified that I had an emotional breakdown. Good thing there were organizations that showed support for families like ours; for families who had to suffer the inevitable loss of a loved one because of service for the country.
Years has passed since that tragedy and now I have come to live in a more relaxed pace. I became stronger in the thought of my children, and how my husband asked me to take good care of them for his sake. I continue to be the best mother that I could be for my children. I show them all undivided love and attention, to compensate for their loss of a father.
While I could manage to do all tasks that mothers naturally do, I also do some tasks that normally done by fathers. I did not want my children to feel sad about that fact always so I make it a point to do manlier things without complaint.
My family and I continue to live our lives, for my husband’s sake. What keeps us going on is the fact that we may not have him with us anymore, but at least we could all be proud that he died a hero.